to my Internet Girls

To my internet ladies, they know who they are.  I don't know what I would have done without you for the past 2 deployments and these next 6 weeks.  You have been with me through all the ups and downs, crazy pregnant lady freak outs, and just me being my random self.  I am so glad that I have met some of you and cannot wait to meet more of you.  I am just so glad that I have been able to find a support group that knows what I am going through with the Military and that we can bash them when needed.  I have loved all our wacky, out there conversations, the laughs and the tears (happy and sad).  I love all our different personalities and if we seem to start clashing, we can talk about it and work it out.  That we are sassy and sarcastic without it going in the wrong direction.  I love you all and do not know where I would be without you.  Please never leave me.  :D

Love, me

Exes...

To those that broke my heart in the past, I want to thank you.  You both made me a stronger person for what you did.  You both ended up being immature boys who couldn't tell me the truth about why you wanted to break up with me, or why you did.    Finding a new girlfriend before you break off your current relationship is cowardly, and cheating on someone is not forgivable.  You have made me a better person, a stronger person for the Lord and myself.  You have led me to the greatest person of all time, my husband who I know would do nothing to hurt me the way you both have hurt me in the past.  The past is the past now and so is the memory of you....dust.

to the Dreamer in you

Today, or your 5th day is to write a letter to your dreams.  I have been trying to swirl all my dreams around in my head for a while and write them down on paper.

Dear Dreams,

I have been chasing you since I was old enough to know what you were.  Back then you were silly dreams of wanting a puppy (that I got when I was 18), hoping I got new toys, to making friends, and becoming a Vet one day.  Then came my teen years of wanting a boyfriend, a job, good grades, to make sure I had a good high school experience, being loved by my family, and being accepted.  Now, my dreams are totally different.  I dream of the day I have my own classroom full of Kindergarten students, watching my son grow up to be the most wonderful man, and to watch my husband become the best man he can be later in life to me, and his son.  Thank you for letting me be a dreamer throughout my life and letting me catch you.  I cannot wait to see what you come up with. ;)

Love, me

Brothers...

Dane and Reid,

As your older sister, I tried to make a good example for you.  I have watched you grow up, through all your ups and downs.   I remember it all, from the dropping of the toys on each others heads, to the fights, to getting in sleeping bags and sliding down the stairs, to the old cabin, stitches, our own fights, etc.  Now you both are young men who are dedicated to doing something great with their lives.  I am proud to be your sister.  Now the tables have turned, to show Riley that their uncles are the coolest people in the world and teach him valuable uncle values.  I am thankful for you both, and that God gave me the coolest brothers in the world.  I love you both!

Mom & Dad

Mom & Dad,

I just wanted to thank you for giving me the life that I deserved.  I feel that God sent you to me, adopt me and love me unconditionally.  You raised me right with morals and values that I hope to instill in Riley one day.  I had an amazing childhood, to which I want to give Riley as well.  Going on all our excursions of hiking, biking, skiing, dive trips, and vacations.  I have loved every minute of my life, even when I was being bad and being punished.  I love you both so much and thank you again for everything.

To the Hubs

Day 2 is to write a letter to your crush and I choose my hubby.  I have a major crush on him, so I found it fitting.

Michael,

    From the very beginning you have not given up on me and I have not given up on you.  I believe this is why we work and always will work as a couple.  Our saying, "Never Let Go", could not have more meaning.  With all the obstacles we have been through, I am glad we have gotten through them.  For some reason trying to write you a letter is hard for me.  I love everything about you.  You are sweet and funny, not to mention the bestest daddy in the world.  I had no doubts when I married you and I have no doubts now.  You ARE the one that was meant for me.  God gave me you and I thank Him for that everyday.  I love you from the depths of my soul, forever.

Bestest Friends

I found from another friend who has a blog, to write a letter to someone for 30 days.  I didnt like half of them, some were redundant, so I am doing 15 days of letters.  The first one is to your best friend.  This is a conundrum for me since I do not just have one, I have two amazing besties.

To Audrey:

    I have known you since Mr. Nilsen's Science Lab class, 9th grade.  There was so much I wished I would have done in HS to be there more and actually feel like I had real friends.  We lost touch for a little while, then found each other again.  That was the best thing I could have done.  You helped me see the light and were there through it all.  I am so thankful for you and your friendship.  You are more than a best friend, you are a sister to me.  Going through our pregnancies together was amazing.  Having baby boys as BFF's is awesome.  I miss you and cannot wait for Frank and Riley to grow up together, and we can grow even more as sisters.  I love you forever and just know that I am always here for you as well.

At Aud's Wedding

FRIEND:

   We met at SOAR and became instant friends.  You were my first friend at WOU.  You have been there for me through my worst.  You helped save me when I needed it the most.  You have always been there for me and I appreciate it so much.  I will always be there for you as well.  You are my "lobster".  :D haha  I cant wait for Riley to know his "aunt jodi" and see how much fun she is, just like how mommy knows you.  You are am amazing friend and if I lost your friendship, I don't know what I would do.  I love you, forever.

Jodi the Graduate & me Pregnant

To my hubby, you are also my best friend, but you are my best friend in a different way.  Don't worry, I didn't forget you!